Growing Pains
Hi friends! This will be my last post for a few days at least. I have come to realize that this computer screen, though it is my connection to so many, is also a HUGE drain on my time. I have a few goals that must be accomplished ASAP and have decided to turn off the computer until they are completed. But before I go I just wanted to babble a bit.
This morning I was in such a dreadful mood. I woke to a monster fever blister which is a direct result of not getting enough rest. Luckily my sweet 8 year old climbed in the bed and snuggled the grump right out of me. It is an awesome thing to love and be loved. Sometimes I think of my life and the many people involved in it and wonder if I moved away who would truly miss me. No this is not a pity party blog, it's just me thinking of who really matters, who really loves me. A few weeks ago I called my mother and one of my best friends in tears because I realized someone "unfriended" me on Face book. I must also say I had a pretty raging case of PMS which was a contributing factor to this unrationalization. Well this so called friend was someone I went to high school with and truth be told I wasn't friends with her in high school and had no contact with her until I discovered FB, so......what's the point.
This Christmas I made a decision to stop going places and spending time with people that I do not genuinely like. That doesn't mean we have to think alike, as a matter of fact I prefer that we don't. I really love being challenged, a little healthy debate is a wonderful thing. It is the people that disagree with me that have caused the most growth in my life. I come from a family that doesn't disagree very often and in a way that is wonderful because I don't have to worry too much about them raging over me getting a tattoo or my nose pierced. Also I have no doubt that they genuinely love me. But I need to be challenged, it's just who I am. I need you to tell me why you think the way you do even if I think it is utterly ridiculous just so I can examine the way I think and be sure I know why I think the way I do.
Religion has always been a subject that I have practically ran from, so afraid that if I understood something besides Christianity that it may cause doubt. Oh my gosh how completely pathetic is that. I have decided I want to know, I want to understand. Why? Because I really believe that to grow in my own faith I have to understand yours. I have to question mine. I have to doubt it. Not because I am interested in changing but because I am interested in growing.
Wow, and babble I have done. I guess now I must get to work. Love and blessings!
This morning I was in such a dreadful mood. I woke to a monster fever blister which is a direct result of not getting enough rest. Luckily my sweet 8 year old climbed in the bed and snuggled the grump right out of me. It is an awesome thing to love and be loved. Sometimes I think of my life and the many people involved in it and wonder if I moved away who would truly miss me. No this is not a pity party blog, it's just me thinking of who really matters, who really loves me. A few weeks ago I called my mother and one of my best friends in tears because I realized someone "unfriended" me on Face book. I must also say I had a pretty raging case of PMS which was a contributing factor to this unrationalization. Well this so called friend was someone I went to high school with and truth be told I wasn't friends with her in high school and had no contact with her until I discovered FB, so......what's the point.
This Christmas I made a decision to stop going places and spending time with people that I do not genuinely like. That doesn't mean we have to think alike, as a matter of fact I prefer that we don't. I really love being challenged, a little healthy debate is a wonderful thing. It is the people that disagree with me that have caused the most growth in my life. I come from a family that doesn't disagree very often and in a way that is wonderful because I don't have to worry too much about them raging over me getting a tattoo or my nose pierced. Also I have no doubt that they genuinely love me. But I need to be challenged, it's just who I am. I need you to tell me why you think the way you do even if I think it is utterly ridiculous just so I can examine the way I think and be sure I know why I think the way I do.
Religion has always been a subject that I have practically ran from, so afraid that if I understood something besides Christianity that it may cause doubt. Oh my gosh how completely pathetic is that. I have decided I want to know, I want to understand. Why? Because I really believe that to grow in my own faith I have to understand yours. I have to question mine. I have to doubt it. Not because I am interested in changing but because I am interested in growing.
Wow, and babble I have done. I guess now I must get to work. Love and blessings!
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